I'm officially a member of the ohgrc. I felt weird entering the Maguindanao Temple Lodge. I feel the all too familiar atmosphere of old men, it's a bit hard for me to shift my focus. Let's just see what will it be like in the months to come.

I hope they have the answers to my problems in ritual

Okay for two months during summer I was certainly engrossed with a fairly practical yet deadly subject called magick. I say practical because it deals in the psychological improvement of one's ego and deadly because one has to cut unto the unknown as well as familiarize every entity enemy to Judeo-Christian man. And I had to decide, though, between Computer Science and Magick, as suited to my affairs.

I'm cool with Magick, I know I could improve fast and fair if I could devote a large part of my time to it. However, since my mother has always been good to me and my friend mungkeyboy has urged me to study well, which reminds me I had avowed to become a good programmer one day. I had decided to assign my Magickal path as second priority to Computer Science.

For now I can stick to the LBRP and the Middle Pillar Ritual when I have time to practice them. So, more importantly, I have most of my time devoted to Computer Science and Software Engineering. I find this troubling once again as I set off to empty my current mindset to preoccupy the more important subject. Nevertheless, Magick has taught me a good lesson that may aid me for this semester. That a man is a container and he can choose what sort of things he may have inside, but always not exclude the divine, being the most essential part of a man.

So for now, I choose to empty abit of Magick terminology and protocol so to allow anything else to contribute to my other growth.

I was going over the topics in theenigmaleague.net, especially my own topic "The Knowledge and Conversation of One's Holy Guardian Angel". For a time, I know one's angel to be truly powerful and a perfect self, that is, myself made divine.

I could hardly contain my excitement when IAO131 simply explained that Liber Samekh is an advanced version of the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. I'm so happy. :D So I have made my first step in invoking my one and true love.

I can hardly place the right words on my thoughts and emotions. I've got to think the Great Work. I'm at the start of the journey and it may take long. But I'm very happy. I'll have to study throughly.

"KNOW THYSELF!"

for

"THERE IS NO LAW BEYOND DO WHAT THOU WILT."

...

"LOVE IS THE LAW, LOVE UNDER WILL."

You are The Fool

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I'm ranting for now. There's nothing good about me to post in such a very long time. Yes, I do procrastinate. But enough of that, I'm here to live a life for myself, and things have gotten smoothly. I feel much better and happier than now.

*Names withheld, and situations.* This is a rant.

But then again, there's something that bothers me all the time.
People's ambivalence, if one had a choice of making the right decision, despite the odds against it. Why oh why is it that you would choose not to pick it. I admit there are these people who have the right lives, the right selves, they who are better quipped than most who don't, and these who live above the shoulders of meek. Though I maybe not someone of high esteem or of an influential mein in life, but I am well known to be a simple person: a citizen, a sinner, a human. I'm simply am. There is danger in being ambivalent, and we know that shame threatens, shame isn't being just a shadow lurking behind us. I'm speaking as a person who had (and might be in the future more) ambivalent in situations, that the tone of my message is sown in good intention.

Its values that are threatened in our little circle, values are more valuable than chauvinism.


:( Oh bother what the hell. ( ._.)
( ; _ ; ) People are too ambitious to appreciate the small things.
If the saying about "Pride comes before the fall" is true. I do hope it comes fast and quick. It's not about pride that one should hold on to ambivalence. But simplicity shall land unto a mudhole, if ambivalence continues to flourish.

It:

1.) smells of Octopus in here.
2.) is not a good place for a bored person like me.
3.) is a requirement that I must find a way to recompose myself.
4.) is a truth that I've been so slumped.
5.) is in need of attention and talky time.
6.) is a must that I must find ka-chan. KACHAN where are you? :cry:

I am alive! Gone with the wind but still in living hell!

Butcher me!

I met SMOKE.

nuff said.